I Knew It

I knew it, I knew I'd quit and I was right.  I have not walked steadily, either at work or at home, since school started last August.  Eight months wasted.  Eight fucking months.

I'm pretty sure I'm up in weight, and when I look in the mirror, I am disgusted. 

Even the look of my hands disgusts me...I can't get my wedding rings off. 

Why. Why can't won't I do it.

Because I can, but I won't.

What the hell is wrong with me?